5 years ago I watched a movie called 127 hours, it’s based on a true story of a mountaineer who got trapped in the mountains when a boulder falls on his arm and he was stuck there for 5 days..

In the movie James Franco said something that stuck in my mind ever since. He said “this rock has been here waiting for me since I was born and everything in my life has lead me to it, lead me to this moment” I was fascinated by this epiphany and it came to my mind when I had Tala.. when it was really dark moments and everything seemed impossible.. this thought popped in my mind..

Tala has been waiting for me since I was born.. she was a floating soul waiting for me to grow up and have her.. and everything I went through in my life has lead me and prepared me to having her..

Then I went deeper into this thought..

I thought of my mom.. How she raised us.. my mom taught me independence since I was a child.. If I had a problem at school, she would sit and talk to me and advise me but she never took matters in her hand. She guided me to handle my own problems myself..

She encouraged me to enroll in any school performance and stand on stage and talk confidently and loudly and clearly. She used to practice with me how will I stand in front of the whole school and say the morning word without shaking..

My mom encouraged me to work when I was in high school..

My mom encouraged me to read a lot, if I want to know about something, then go to the library look for a book that covers this subject and read about it..

My mom is the biggest reason I’m prepared to handle Tala.. because I learnt ever since I was in grade 1 to take matters in my own hands.. I learnt to find a way to solve my problems.. I learnt not to be scared to ask and face anything that comes in my way.

I learnt to look up information and research.. not only depend on what people tell me and this made a world of difference with Tala.

My mom had her share of challenges herself, I watched her rise above her problems and be the fun, loving mother she is.. not only that, she is successful at her work as well.. So I too will rise above Talas challenges and have fun with her and love her and be successful at my job..

Then I went to college, faculty of pharmacy. Back then I knew I wanted to be a teacher, it’s my passion ever since I can remember.. so a lot of people asked me “why trouble yourself in pharmacy if you want to be a teacher?”

Back then, my answer was I loved science and specifically chemistry.. which wasn’t really a satisfying answer.. Now I know why I went to faculty of pharmacy.. I have a slight medical background, I used to read a lot of books about medicine which made it easier for me to understand medical terms used by Talas doctors.. I know how to ask them questions.. when I read an article about genetics or any medical journal that will help me in understanding Talas case more, it’s easy for me..

I work as a teacher now and sometimes people wonder why leave pharmacy and be a teacher.. being a teacher taught me patience, taught me that there a million ways to reach a persons mind. It helped me a lot when I work with Tala.. I have the capacity to handle her slow ability to grasp certain concepts, cause I deal with that everyday with my students..

Being a teacher taught me scheduling and managing time and any mother needs these skills with her kids..

Then I took a homeopathy course, which a holistic approach of alternative medicine.. this course taught me that each person is unique in his own way and that you have to deal with every persons symptoms like it’s his own set of symptoms.. don’t put your expectations or your beliefs or what you learnt into the patients experience.. listen to what he has to say only..

This made me look at Tala the same way.. she is unique.. she is literally unique, she’s the only reported case in Egypt and number 7 in the world with this genetic disorder.. but I learnt that I don’t put my expectations or my vision of the perfect child on her.. I learnt to see her perfect traits and enrich them.. I learnt to see her the way she is, not the way I want her to be..

It’s a lot of work and not a walk in the park definitely.. and there a lot of days when I feel like I’m in a whirlpool being sucked down and not able to breathe.. but then, they are just days that pass by like any other day.. Life has to go on and the earth will never stop turning.. so enjoy your ride while you’re on it because your whole life has lead you to where you are now.. so be sure that you are well prepared to handle whatever comes your way.. and allowing yourself to break down and cry and feel miserable is part of handling it.. just be sure to get back up and ride the wave to the top again..

This is how I saw my life and how it took me to my beautiful Tala who was hanging around the corner the whole time waiting for me very patiently.. I encourage everyone to look back at their life and I’m sure you will discover a lot about yourself that you didn’t know or maybe you knew but didn’t really realize it at the time..

Have a wonderful dayJ